So I have embarked upon the online dating journey. What an experience! I know that God has been speaking through this process, I'm just trying to train my ear to listen to him and truly know what He's saying.
Date #1 was less than stellar, but I can see how God used the situation to bring confidence and peace. I knew before the date even started that it wasn't going to work...he was 20 minutes late. But things happen...and I drove over an hour to get there...so I stuck around. Conversation was a struggle, eye contact was painful (and piercing), and there really just wasn't any chemistry. I thank God for that experience though, because it made me realize that I could put myself in an awkward situation and survive!
Date #2 was a completely different story. I decided that I didn't want to drag pre-date conversations out forever like I had with #1. Our conversations were different too...rather concise and not into the wee hours of the morning. I had just enough information to peak my interest and help me feel safe. I had already turned down the first offer for a date because I thought it was too soon. Then I found myself prompting him to ask me out again...I'm glad he did!
First meetings are always strange. Of course, there was an awkward hand shake at the beginning...but even that can be overlooked. We had dinner at a nice little restaurant and they seated us "alone" in the window. We had random conversations about cottage cheese and paint can explosions...and none of it felt strange. I'm curious to know what my facial expressions said that night as our server just kept looking at me and smiling. What was my face saying? Did she know this was a first date? Were we a cute couple?
As dinner ended, there was a tense moment when he asked me what I was thinking. We had just talked about claiming the "I don't know anything" card when someone asks you... I tried that for a moment...just because I had a flurry of emotions and didn't know how to respond except for a cheesy smile and saying it was "ok". Then he invited me to go walk the river trail with him, I accepted. He gave me options and offered for me to ride with him...I accepted that too!
Now it's time to process... My prayer from the beginning has been that if it is supposed to be that it will be...and if it's not then it's not. The relationship world is brand new to me and I don't want to enter in without reservation. With that said, there were an awful lot of little things that we have in common...so little that I wonder why/how they came up in conversation. I know He's up to something...
Father, thank you for the opportunity to meet this person. Thank you for great conversation, an unprecedented level of peace and comfort, and an overall great time. I pray that you would would give us wisdom as we pursue date #2 and whatever may come next. Amen!
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